One year ago this am...
I lost my Mom.....
So today is 1 year that I lost my mom.  Gosh.... so hard to put into words, feelings....I have so many emotions about it....still....  She was my biggest cheerleader, my confidant and really my best friend.  I used to joke about it with her and tell her she was my BFF and I didn't realize until we lost her just how true that was.  I miss talking with her the most......and then seeing her as the hubby and I spent SO MUCH time with her and my dad.  Its been rough.   Mom and I had the best relationship and she and my dad was so a part of my life.  I was proud to show her off and she has been to a many parties, bashes and gay clubs and drag shows since the 80's....She kinda grew up with me as I grew myself in my 20's and 30's and now 40's... Yep she was my BFF!   And everyone thought she was SO COOL..... 
 I kinda took my cue from her as I have always taken friends and made them into OHANA or family-- by taking all my friends and family and making sure they all mix....as she said it was the Hawaiian way....Show your aloha!  Its all we know......I know...its how we were raised!  I know this is why I have a BIG OHANA...a very large and wide circle of friends through the years....Its a bit differ than what I see here and what some seem to practice... Its strange for me to see people separating friends and or families... I say learn to share...  Live and learn ALOHA! I am just glad I had her as my mom....I know she guides and walks with me everyday. 
I Miss u mom!  





Wish I could go home to celebrate..... its 


