The "Uncle"
So quite a few e mails from you fellas about the post below on my "uncle" ...First of all here is the post
Here I guess I did not elaborate much on it or maybe I did but I could not find the post I thought I had written....So here goes.
When we moved to Seattle in 1980 my dad started the police academy in Shelton after leaving the Honolulu Police force....as he wanted to be with the Seattle force. He made a few friends from the academy and it was normal for them to come over and hang out at the house on weekends and or breaks from school ---They would have dinner, play poker, BBQ, and drink beer etc. I was 14 going on 15 at the time. There was one "uncle" in particular that would pay attention to all the kids and I thought he was just the best guy. He really was one of my first real man crushes now that I think back but at the time I knew nothing about what this "crush" or the "feelings" meant.... you know what I mean? I just knew he made me feel good when he was around. Heck I didn't even know I was gay.......let alone what gay was.....I just knew I had feelings for guys that was not suppose to normal to feel and I hoped that one day it would hopefully just go away.... As it was wrong to think of guys in the way I did.
Uncle hot cop kinda resembled the man in the pic.......less the tats. So he would hang out and play with us kids--dodge ball and basket ball as we had a BB court at home. I loved to play BB with him and we would play into the warm evenings when he came over....he was just a cool guy and I was happy to hang with a dude! On one of his visits he came by with a big box of King Crab from Alaska (as he was from AK originally/now in Seattle to be a cop) Dad put some steaks on the grill.... mom made her famous salad.... and the neighbors were over with other fixings and like other times everyone got together and they all drank beer, wine ate
pupus and we all had a good time at a BBQ.... and as usual he would horse play with us kids throughout the day. It was just normal horse play... like to hold you down, fake choke you and make you cry "Uncle".. tickle you to death ....and throw ya around in the yard and play chase and race...silly fun stuff!
That evening after dinner he and I started horsing around in the living room and started wrestling...this was normal but on this night he was being really rough! I remember he got me really mad and angry and I recall how everyone was laughing at how mad and 'Red" I got with anger. The more he laughed the more angry I got as he was holding and pinning me down and holding me hard in body locks just like a pretzel! He was pretty hairy and then he started rubbing his whisker face on my face, neck and chest...HARD! thus giving me major hair burns all over! He really enjoyed making me scream and squirm! My mom, dad, friends and other kids laughed as this was normal for me and my uncle to horse around.....
Well something was different this time though..... and as we continued wrestling I developed and then got a major woody! And then I started to feel he had one too! All I remember is that we wrestled for a very LONG time that night after that....it was alot of rubbing and such against each other.....now these days I would call that foreplay...LOL!! I also remember how we would cool down and catch our breaths in each other arms so our "ahems" would conceal a bit and we did this a few times...... So it was a very hot time.... I was sorta confused but I knew at that point what was going on....and I liked it ALOT..... And he knew I knew if you know what I mean...
So "Uncle" spent the night this night---as he had done so on many other occasions as dad didn't want him driving home after drinking. And so on this very night I kissed my first man. I remember it very well. He asked me If I knew how to kiss and I told him "no" and so he "taught" me. That's all that happened and then about a month later I had my true first experience with a man....we did not have sex but everything else if you know what I mean.... Then NOTHING ever happened again and he stopped coming by after this night to visit. I didn't ask about him to my dad either. I missed him and thought about him when I was alone and such for awhile but I was young and I was in a new school and was preoccupied with all that and then I was into this
whole new guy anyhow......which helped me forget him ...And I had girlfriends that I was trying to pursue- it was a busy time for me..
Weeks later... my dad and my "uncle" graduated from the police academy and I saw him there and shook his hand....And we smiled at each other....but I never saw or heard form him again....Nor did I ever think to contact him......I guest we both just knew it was a no no what had happened --it was taboo....and I knew it was best for me to bury it and make like it never happened......We did that often us early gays!
LOL .... I really don't think it was a case of molestation either... so please don't even go there. I think one of the reasons he beelined out of our lives is that he felt he had wronged me and my family by what had happened between us what we shared....He felt guilty is my guess when I look back now......My dad told me years later he heard he got married and had moved to Oregon.... I do have a photo of him still...... its my dads police academy grad photo and he is wearing cop mirror shades in the pic......very
Chips.....he is the only guy in shades in the class pic ....its kinda funny!
I do wonder what happen to him....I would love to tell him how that encounter meant so much to me...
Mom's Service is Tomorrow 6-29 St Anthony's Church in Renton. 
My mom passed away yesterday morning. She was surrounded by her family "ohana" and I am lost for words and numb at this time. My heart hurts more than it ever has. I will be away for a bit from blogging. I am so going to miss my mommy who was not only the best mom ever she was also my best friend. 
Mom in 1966 Kaimiki High. Diane Joyce Paulos --
Week went sorta quick eh... How was it for you? So Wednesday nights gay skate was major fun...Alot of friends came and we had a super duper time. It was a very busy night and the most I have seen at Gay Skate yet.....It was nice for our peeps to come out on a school night so that was cool...it was fun to see everyone....Only thing missing at these events is drinks....but then again I don't think we want people skating that are buzzed!! LOL! There was lots of cute boys at the rink too! Does every gay boy know how to skate? It seems most of us have that gene to roll on wheels with ease... good times!
Still Team Kellan!! YAY!! Saw this all over today and had to jump on the bandwagon! I believe the next Twilight movie is a few weeks away? I wish Mr Lutz had more of a role in this whole Twilight franchise but hes gotten alot of bang from us nevertheless hasn't he? Kellan is and will always be my guy.....You all out there on the other teams and all them girls can have the other 2......The ones two gayish anyhow and the other look like he needs a bath big time....just saying!
Off to GAY SKATE SEATTLE tonite.....Looking forward to skating to some jams and just rolling rolling rolling....Hope to see the usual suspects and some new ones too...I'm thinking it will be a good "Calgon take me away time". I need it!
Some days you just want to nod off.....Some days you want a boy in cute gym shorts and tube socks to nod off so you can get a cute pic of him.... I feel a bit under the weather today. It might be all the stress though. I have been sleeping a heck of alot this week....Now if I was a younger lad my mom would say well it must be that Im growing....but now that I am more closer to being an old bag....Its most likely my body is telling me that I need the rest... Is it Friday yet? Hurry up already.....
Remember Ronnie Kroell? Oh how I loved that bromance between he and BEN on Make Me A Supermodel...Well I'm sure you have seen all over the web these days the Ronnie is in Playgirl shoot....Shall we say he has ALOT to show off...Puts Levi to shame...Now whatever happen to Ben?? That's what I want to know!
So quite a few e mails from you fellas about the post below on my "uncle" ...First of all here is the post Here I guess I did not elaborate much on it or maybe I did but I could not find the post I thought I had written....So here goes.
